I wonder what color was there.

# by KazuFromNZ | 2005-05-27 23:59
a0018711_22201245.jpgAh, why hasn't my telephone rung still? I wonder if I could get a job by June.

A year ago, I was in New Zealand. And I moved to Marlborough Sounds to work at the backpackers hostel at the beginning of June. It was difficult to find work for me in New Zealand because I couldn't speak English well.

Now I have no job. But it should be quite quite easier to get a job in Japan than in New Zealand for me.

I feel like as if I am in New Zealand still now. I mean I spend easygoing days though Japanese city people are usually restless.

When I came back from New Zealand, a man said to me,
"Your speech seem to have been quite slow down maybe because of NZ nature."

I'll keeping the easygoing style. And I enjoy no job poor days.
# by KazuFromNZ | 2005-05-26 22:18
a0018711_039442.jpgThis evening, I ate an apple for dinner.

Then, something was wrong with my lip. And my throat as well.

Although I thought the apple was bad at first, I'm afraid I became allergic to apples. My lip and throat have swelled out.

Ah, my life with apples has finished just now. I can not have apples any more. Goodbye lovely apples.
# by KazuFromNZ | 2005-05-25 23:59
a0018711_239241.jpgThere was a holy stone statue. There were flowers and water for the holy stone statue.

A dog drank the water.

It was just a piece of stones. It was just water to him.

All is vanity.
# by KazuFromNZ | 2005-05-24 23:08
Many stories are crossing under the sky.
# by KazuFromNZ | 2005-05-23 23:42
a0018711_22552235.jpgToday I spent over 9 hours at a coffee shop nearby. It was the first time to visit for me today. I visited there to write a manuscript and to read some books.

Actually, there are no chairs or desks in my room. I have only a low table. And my table is littered with some books, cups, dishes, CDs, letters, stationery, and manuscripts. For that reasons, it hadn't been so going smoothly to make a book lately. It was surely owing to myself. But the victim is also only myself. Then, what should I do?

Then, I went to the coffee shop today. That was great. My work ran quite better. A travesty of fairy tale was nearly finished. Although I spent more money for lunch there than at my home, I could spent really substantial 9 hours today.

I wonder if I would go there tomorrow again though I am poor as ever. Somebady said, "Time is money." you know.
# by KazuFromNZ | 2005-05-22 22:54
a0018711_6242738.jpgIt was the birthday of my friend, Peter Zaugg. He is a Swiss man and became 50 today. I met him in Christchurch, New Zealand in Oct, 2003. He'd arrived there just a week before I reached.

Although I came back to my country 12 months later, he went back only recently. He traveled with his wife. They are extremely active. You can see that looking at the photos of their website. They have visited New Zealand, Australia, Fiji, and Thailand. Then, they have often renewed their website. Although it is written in German, you can enjoy watching their beautiful photos.


On the menu of the website, "Bilder (Fotos)" is the page of photos.

Although I couldn't join his birthday party today, I am going to visit Switzerland sometime.

A Happy birthday.
# by KazuFromNZ | 2005-05-21 23:59
I like the sea.
# by KazuFromNZ | 2005-05-20 23:59
a0018711_64469.jpgThere are too many books to read in my room now before I knew it. Today I read and read and enjoy it.

This afternoon, I had a phone call from the company which I'd had an interview on Tuesday. He said if I could have the second interview tomorrow. Of course, I answered "Yes!".

When I had the last interview, the interviewers told me that they would answer maybe next Monday. I guess that was a good stream to me because if they were not interested in me, they would never meet me again.

Anyway I'll keep doing my best. And keep reading books and writing a book.
# by KazuFromNZ | 2005-05-19 23:59
a0018711_0202978.jpgAt the end of April, I visited Tokurin temple.

When I arrived there, Mr. Aoyama was in the room and said to me,
"Wow! You came here to celebrate the birthday of Mr. Hideo Ito?"

Mr. Aoyama is a photographer. He lives in Nagoya city and often visits Tokurin temple. I'd got to know him at "the festival of Buddha's birth" at Tokurin temple. It was at the beginning of the month.

Well, the next day was just the birthday of Mr. Hideo Ito. Of course, I hadn't known that. I visited just for my book. But anyway, it sounded good. Mr. Hideo Ito lives under the hill of Tokurin temple. He is a picture book's artist. When I'd met him before, he sketched me. He told me he would use it when he makes "Momotaro". Momotaro is a famous fairy story in Japan.

Anyway the next day, I went to Mr. Hideo Ito's birthday party. After the dinner, I played with his son, Ushio. Ushio was 5 years old, I suppose. Although I'd played with him at that Festival, I'd usually played another boy. Ushio is a quite shy boy and quiet. I thought he resembled my childhood. Opposite to him, another boy was a dynamic active boy. He used to make Ushio cry though the boy couldn't understand why Ushio cried.

Anyway, at the birthday party, I played with Ushio. He was more active than I'd though. We played with something like refuse which littering the floor. I'm often impressed with imagination which children have. They can play with anything. They can see rubbish as like toys. The next instant, it has already started their own stories in their head. When I play with them, I can sometimes see something which they made in their stories. When I played with Ushio, I could see the sea, a mole, a ship, ice hockey players, birds, barrels, and so on at just the small space in the house of Mr. Ito. It was a wonderland made by Ushio.

a0018711_0373197.jpgChildren prefer simple stories to read books or to watch TV, films, and something like that. Opposite to them, adults prefer complex stories. Adults generally think that children cannot understand complex stories so that they watch simple stories. But maybe adults don't have as much imagination as children so that they cannot enjoy simple stories, I think.

Actually, now I can see their wonderland more than three years ago though not as much as my real childhood yet. It means I've been growing down to childhood, perhaps.
# by KazuFromNZ | 2005-05-18 23:59
a0018711_233341100.jpgI had a job interview this evening. I talked to two interviewers. They talked to me friendly and so I could quite relax and told about myself quite smoothly.

That was why I've done my best. However, they told me that many people had applied to the work. But only one person can get it. Ah, please good luck to me!

They told me that they would answer next Monday because they needed to meet many applicants. That's why my no work days will continue at least for 6 days more. Then, I'll spend the time to read books and keep to write a travesty of a fairy tale.

Such days might be not bad.
# by KazuFromNZ | 2005-05-17 22:25
a0018711_7353838.jpgThis morning, I went cycling along the river. There were no clouds in the blue sky. It was windy and a little bit cold. I felt fresh air.

At around noon, I rang to a company to apply a job interview. Then, I'll have a job interview tomorrow. I wish I will get it. A condition of the work is perfect for me to make a book.

That's why I'll do my best or moreover tomorrow.
# by KazuFromNZ | 2005-05-16 23:59
a0018711_1484792.jpgThere are no ways ahead of me.

It is always formed following me.
# by KazuFromNZ | 2005-05-15 23:59
a0018711_0574645.jpgI write a book. But what does that mean?

It's just a game. I just want to meet and talk to interesting people. I am just curious. I'd thought so. However, Mr. Hirabayashi pointed out the contradiction.

I don't want to send a message to people like a teacher or a priest. I just want to touch a chord with somebody. I mean I'd like to look for somebody who has similar feeling and thinking to me. But to make a book means to send a message to people. Ah, it's difficult.

Today, an idea came into my mind. Then, perhaps, I wonder that I should be an unrespectable person. Then I don't become like a teacher or a priest.

But anyway, I have to go first. It doesn't matter whether I was a bad man or a good man. Actually, it was my important concept from the beginning.

There are no evil or virtue. There is just a zoo named Earth.
# by KazuFromNZ | 2005-05-14 23:59
a0018711_57182.jpgActually, it's already 5 am of 14th now. I have read my old diary.

Yesterday, I got a letter from Mr. Gufu who lives in Kamikatsu, Tokushima. Well, the man at left (and is cut) in this photo is Mr. Gufu. I'd asked him if I could visit his house in June on a letter several days ago. As I expected, he would welcome me. He wanted me to help planting rice.

That is fine. But actually, I haven't got repling from the company that I'd sent my PV three days ago. I am poor so I must work to go to Tokushima. I must go there to write a book. I wonder if I will ring to the company tomorrow.

But anyway I am alive still. That's fine. I've tasted the no work days. Then, I feel like writing a travesty of fairy tale now. Now I decided to write it first.

There are some precooked food left in my room still. They can tide me over a week if I lost money.
# by KazuFromNZ | 2005-05-13 23:59
a0018711_1591984.jpgThis evening, I had dinner with Mr. Hirabayashi who is a game analyst. He was my teacher when I was a college student.

Today, I met him to talk about making a book. I told him about my project. I explained to him what I'd like to do in this project. Then, he pointed out a bad spot.

I would interview to interesting people about their strange lives. But Mr. Hirabayashi advised me that I should not only be an author but also the main charactor. He said that I should write a novel. He had said like that also before that time. A novel...

a0018711_1595474.jpgAnyway, I'm going to visit the houses of interesting people, and then I'll write the story of adventure.

Today, we talked for about 3 hours. But actually he had had another appointment. He changed it to 2 hours later and apologized to a man on the phone. I am thankful to him and I will surely write the novel.

But first of all, I am going adventurous travelling.
# by KazuFromNZ | 2005-05-12 23:59
a0018711_20423148.jpgTwo weeks ago, I visited Tokurin temple of Nagoya. Then I told the people that I would make a book. A man said,
"In English?"

He is Mr. Manic, from Nepal. He lives in Tokurin temple and goes to university. He speaks English fluently.

"No way. It's impossible!", I said.
I thought he was kidding. But he said seriously,
"If you write in English, many people can read it."

Yeah, he was right. Although I have poor English skills, my diary has been sometimes read by different country people. I wonder if I would write about my book here in English if I could make it.

But anyhow, I should go forward little by little. And before everything else, I taste the mysterious days which made by my strange or ordinary action.
# by KazuFromNZ | 2005-05-11 20:41
a0018711_419539.jpgEven though people go hastily, nature take their time.

But actually, human was born of nature.
# by KazuFromNZ | 2005-05-10 23:59
a0018711_3321656.jpgI wanted to create computer games once. I thought game is a good medium to make arts from my ideas.

One day, a game company's boss said to me,
"You should see the various world before join the game world"
Then I thought,
"That's right. After that, I would be able to have amazing ideas of game!"

Today, 936 days have passed since that day. I wonder that I just wanted to be a great creator those days. Maybe I wanted to be an artist like as the God or a teacher or something makes the message to people.

And now, I am making a book. Now I think book is a good medium to make arts from my ideas. Now I don't want to be a great creator. I'd just like to share ideas with normal people as I am a normal person.

For making the book, I'm going to visit some interesting people who I met at Tokurin temple at the beginning of April. I'd like to introduce their interesting life styles or ideas. Although they look having strange lives, they are just ordinary people. First, I'd like to share their ideas and my ideas with people who would read my book.

And I want to show that we are all ordinary and all different.

a0018711_40613.jpgIn Japanese news, there are many people angry, sad, and suffered. On the other hand, today, I got up at 1pm. I had precooked food which bad for my health. I just listened to music for an hour. One day, I kept seeing waterfall for 3 hours. Several days ago, I enjoyed listening to the sound of rain. I often draw self-righteous pictures. But anyway, I am surely alive and happy.

Those were for nobody, just for myself. But sometimes, I feel like sharing those simple pleasure, or amusement. And then, I will make a book for my new enjoyment and also to want to share something nice with some people.

Actually, that is my game.
# by KazuFromNZ | 2005-05-09 23:59
Just like him.

# by KazuFromNZ | 2005-05-08 23:59
a0018711_1910167.jpg It was sunny today. I got up at 2:30pm. And I went to a man's house by train.

Actually, I was late so I had just a few minutes to talk to him. Then he said,

"It is important that keeping doing anything even though little by little"

That's right.
# by KazuFromNZ | 2005-05-07 19:10
a0018711_164664.jpgIt's raining in Yokohama now. Although it had been hot days recently, it was a little bit cold today.

I went to post office today. Lately I often write a letter. A letter is nice. The time to write a letter to someone is also one to think about them.

By the way, lately I often think about "Flavor life". In Japanese, it is often called "Sabi" or "Wabi". Japanese think that those are important culture for them but I think many Japanese have opposite lives now. I enjoyed writing a letter while listening tha sound of rain today. That is Wabi culture.
# by KazuFromNZ | 2005-05-06 23:59
a0018711_1212970.jpgToday, I met a man and talked for 5 hours though we had never met before. I talked too much so that I got a sore throat now.

His name is Go and 23. I hadn't met people of about the same age as me for a long. That's why I had fresh feeling today. Well, I surely like talking to old people. Old people usually use the past tense when they tell about themselves. On the other hand, Go and I talked using the present perfect continuous.

Anyway I've been enjoying mysterious meeting as ever. I call that "Flavor life" lately.
# by KazuFromNZ | 2005-05-05 23:59
a0018711_23251351.jpgThose days, I met Mr. Akira and Mr. Jerrow (I'm not sure the spell). Mr. Akira is an ink painter. And Mr. Jerrow is a calligrapher of English. They talked about old ink painter's works and then I joined them.

I talked to Mr. Jerrow about his works. His works were quite interesting so I asked him what the arts expressed one by one. Calligraphy is Japanese and Chinese traditional art. Usually they use Chinese letters. But Mr. Jerrow does it using the English alphabet. It looked very nice.

When he left Tokurin temple, he gave me one of his works. It is hung on the wall of my room now. He wrote "Fresh" (on the photo).

a0018711_2326579.jpgMr. Akira is the first man who has similar sence of values to mine. By the way, he is 69 now. It means he has lived over three times year than me. That time, we talked about the beginning of universe, the end of time, why we are here, what human is, and something philosophical. We had really nice time.

If I hadn't been to Tokurin temple, I couldn't meet them. If I hadn't been to Kamikatsu town..., if I hadn't been to New Zealand... Anyway I'd done those and now I am here.

I wonder that I am going to many place to meet interesting people. I think that the enjoyment of my life is in such adventures.
# by KazuFromNZ | 2005-05-04 23:28
a0018711_22423212.jpgAh, two months have already passed since the Kamikatsu days. But I might be going there again before long.

Actually I've already forgot what I would write about those days. Anyway I got to know many wonderful interesting people there. And the meeting made me have next adventure.

Mr. Gufu had lived in Nepal in 70s. He got many friends there. And the present, his friends gather to Tokurin temple once a year. Mr. Gufu invited me to the festival of Tokurin temple.

a0018711_22572663.jpgThat was why I went there. And I met lots of interesting people there again. Then, I felt like writing about their strange lives. Now I've just begun to do that. That's why I went to Tokurin temple again last week. Next, I'll write letters to make contacts.
# by KazuFromNZ | 2005-05-03 22:58
a0018711_22352862.jpgNow I wonder what I would write here first. I came back from Nagoya 3 days ago.

Although I don't know what I should do first, anyway I do anything one by one.

Then, I drew a picture first of all.
# by KazuFromNZ | 2005-05-02 22:35
a0018711_482682.jpgI'm going to Tokurin temple tomorrow. I decided it this afternoon and then I rang to the priest.
"Could I come to your temple tomorrow?"
"Okay. Then, see you tomorrow evening."

He didn't ask anything. He just said okay. He looked just a normal old man. But he is really big. Everybody says so. I'm going there to talk to him and his friends.

I'm going to stay there for 4 or 5 days.
# by KazuFromNZ | 2005-04-24 23:59
It was sunny. I usually like it but sometimes don't like.

# by KazuFromNZ | 2005-04-23 22:10
a0018711_1134893.jpgSometimes I remember about some people who I'd met. They live in their own style.

Three years ago, a man said to me,
"Believe in and trust to your intuition"
Lately I often remember his word.

One day I said to him,
"I'll go where nobody has reached yet. I'm going to make my way. The road is always behind me"
I'd forgot it for a long time.

Maybe I was afraid of risk. I was afraid of what people think or say. Maybe I looked for roads which somebody has walked, before I knew it.

Then, I'm going in my own style to where nobody has been.
# by KazuFromNZ | 2005-04-22 23:57
This week, I haven't worked.

# by KazuFromNZ | 2005-04-21 23:59